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written by Alex on Jun 10, 2017 00:33
...but thought it didn't concern much of what's the site for. It's more about me, so I'll ultimately post this in "whatever" instead...

Well, I don't know where to start. I'm typing this comfortably in the notepad, will paste it later, rather than showing up online all the time. So I can concentrate on writing this. I've never been good focusing on more things at the same time, that's quite annoying given that others usually fare better than me in that.

So, now that given the facts of 2016 and 2017 we're all doomed for good, what was I supposed to say? What I've been doing, I guess. I've been switching from something to something else, to something else again. At first it was Cydonia, which I felt it couldn't be interesting anyway, and then L.in.oleum 4, which is basically complete but lacks some optimizations, and my will to write down documentation and generally pour it out. I'm not sure it's right, or I can't currently feel up to the task of following it up. I'm very... weak. I feel unsure. Then I even started writing a book, a hard sci-fi story which I conveniently determined I'd try to write in English, because you know... hard sci-fi isn't hard enough if you try to put it together in your mother tongue. Make it more challenging, so it's less likely to succeed. The story of my life. Also it's meant to take place on this very planet, just 180 years from now, so I had to try and extrapolate a plausible future and since it featured no escape from the planet itself, it got pretty much depressing, although the worldbuilding phase ultimately wound up in a so-so ending. Not a happy one, just so-so. And very strange.

Feeling old and stupid. Oh, and I adopted a kitten. That was a week ago. It just happened. I like that it happened, but it's also a pretty significant responsibility, and I think I'm quite busy sorting out myself already, so I'm also slightly worried. I'm always worried anyway.

It's a she. Born around April 14th, at least that was computed by assuming her age was 50 days by the time we adopted her, which was the third of June. A grey cat, white muzzle and belly, light grey feet, joyful temperament, a hint of "verbosity". Still don't know the color of her eyes, they're currently grey as well, but they're probably going to change color. We don't know the father so it could be anything: orange, green, maybe light blue but that's unlikely. Even more unlikely, they could stay grey. That'd be odd. I called her Rita, because she's grey-white and playful and verbose and reminds me of that Animaniacs character from the 90's. Let's just hope she doesn't start singing, or at least if she does, let's hope it's punk rock.

I'll add a pic of her... there's videos on my facebook profile but I have no idea who can see them, I mean they're public but possibly facebook requires everyone to be registered to see stuff there. Never remind that. I should really open a blog somewhere, or just post things here.

cd/jpgs/Alex/dscf2938 (1352 Kb)

Sorry for sounding probably unhappy.
I'm in fact unhappy. Can't help. But I figured I'd say hello here.
And how are you?
written by Cryoburner on Jun 12, 2017 00:08
Hi Alex!

It kind of reminds me of the first picture here, although the ears aren't quite right. Also, I'm assuming she doesn't have round pupils... http://honesttopaws.com/pallas-cat-rescue/

The kittens here are doing fine, although they are over a year and a half old now, so they're not exactly kittens. Also, one is missing a leg, but otherwise seems fine. I should post some pictures of them at some point. We need a thread for cat photos though. Probably should just steal this one. : D
lost, not forgotten
written by Alex on Jun 12, 2017 20:14
You know... the pupils aren't even that much evidently fissure-like, so far, but I guess it's a small kitten thing. They do look round most of the time.

One is missing a leg? That sucks, poor kitty.
An incident or a birth defect?

And yes, feel free to hijack this thread.
I'm currently uploading a video of Rita playing on my bed. I had also posted it two days ago on facebook, it'll be under the following URL:

http://anynowhere.com/personal/rita/4evernow.avi

...except my upload speed is 40 KB/s and the video is over 50 MB, so I have plenty of time to post this message while it's still incomplete. Time left: about 8 minutes, provided the connection holds because it's also being intermittent in recent times. It loses the carrier due to noise on the phone line. I think I'll check some wires in the basement, upon a quick inspection there might be a bit of a mess there. Or it may be that the modem plug could use a DSL filter, other than the one of the phone device.
r'lyeh sweet r'lyeh
written by Neuzd on Jun 12, 2017 21:13
Pretty funny kitten : )
Can I hijack the thread as well with some technical matters?
It looked that the storage area for feedback uploads has reached its maximum. Can it be purged or expanded?
lost, not forgotten
written by Alex on Jun 12, 2017 22:21
Uh... I guess both things can be done.
Let me see...

edit:
ok, cleared the feedback folder and increased available space tenfold, to about 100 MB.
lost, not forgotten
written by Alex on Jun 12, 2017 22:39
p.s. to those who may be already too young to remember, here's the character the kitten got her name from:



that is, just like calling a male cat Sylvester because he's black and white...
going nowhere fast...
written by Skinnymon on Jun 13, 2017 16:56
I was going to make a reply to Alex about the original subject of this thread. At least to remark that Cydonia wasn't bad at all, at least as far as it went. Myself, I have a tendency to want to do things that never seem to reach fruition, not because they depress me, but because of the quantity of things that sound appealing, and soon end up with "plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines."

Oh well, just ignore the man behind the curtain.

BUT as long as we are on the subject, im3cr, it was when Cryo first mentioned his kittens, now big kittens (since when you raise them, they never become "cats" to you, do they?) and you made a remark about you would keep the black one. Well, I had that "opportunity."

cd/jpgs/Skinnymon/imag-320 (132 Kb)

Lightning (sitting up), Shad (Shadrach III, down left), and Itty (down right). Three brothers.

And their sisters, Oreo

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and Hydrox (though everyone calls her Roxy).

cd/jpgs/Skinnymon/imag-341r (150 Kb)

Yes, she was born with half a tail, but she seems to feel it's not a "birth defect." It's a feature!

(You would have to wiki Oreo and Hydrox to get the humor in the names- their father was Cookie- also white & black, the mother was a black cat named Woody.)

And last fall, I was adopted by Weezer. (To the left)

cd/jpgs/Skinnymon/imag-350 (138 Kb)

One evening I was outside feeding Penny (one of the older generation cats, Aunt Penny to the young ones) when Weezer appeared and walked slowly over. I said, "You're a Siameser Weezer, aren't you?" She promptly began devouring Penny's food. (Penny had backed off some distance by this point in time.) I let her eat, and went back in thinking she would leave. The next morning she came out of hiding and looking for more food. I fed her again, and she has stayed ever since. She was very thin when she first appeared, so she may have either been "dumped off" by someone who couldn't keep her (or else she was just plain abandoned at her previous home). Where I live is mostly farm area, not city, where "dumping" often happens when people get evicted or just have to move and cannot take the cat with them. It seems a shame, but the local Animal Control does not have a good reputation with cats left in their care, and some people just hope maybe some idiot cat lover ahem...kind person(s) will take the cat in. Anyway, that's the story.

Oh, that's Lightning in the picture with her. Weezer gets along usually with the "boys." The female cats, it's not as peaceful- lots of batting with paws and occasional hisses.

lost, not forgotten
written by Alex on Jun 15, 2017 09:24
Skinnymon said:
I was going to make a reply to Alex about the original subject of this thread. At least to remark that Cydonia wasn't bad at all, at least as far as it went.
Not good enough? I was looking for a place, made of a lot of different places, with that thing. Something to build stuff in, have chats... I don't even know, I guess it's an answer without the question. But it might still be worth completing, who knows? Give it a chance... after some minor improvement... hmm...

Skinnymon said:
Myself, I have a tendency to want to do things that never seem to reach fruition, not because they depress me, but because of the quantity of things that sound appealing, and soon end up with "plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines."
If that's the same as conceiving projects that turn out very hard to implement, that's my own syndrome as well.

Skinnymon said:
Oh well, just ignore the man behind the curtain.
I believe I've ignored enough.
I'm getting old and rusty.
Time to care, before time's up.

Skinnymon said:
BUT as long as we are on the subject, im3cr, it was when Cryo first mentioned his kittens, now big kittens (since when you raise them, they never become "cats" to you, do they?)
Sometimes they do: "Lucky" did, abandoning this house in the process at 7 years of age, and Ares is undergoing the same process, he's getting very detached from the place and from me. They became what they're meant to be: "cats who walk by themselves, all places being alike to them". I'm not unhappy about that.

Skinnymon said:
and you made a remark about you would keep the black one. Well, I had that "opportunity."

cd/jpgs/Skinnymon/imag-320 (132 Kb)

Lightning (sitting up), Shad (Shadrach III, down left), and Itty (down right). Three brothers.
Three nice mini-panthers.

Skinnymon said:
And their sisters, Oreo

cd/jpgs/Skinnymon/imag-345o (91 Kb)

and Hydrox (though everyone calls her Roxy).

cd/jpgs/Skinnymon/imag-341r (150 Kb)

Yes, she was born with half a tail, but she seems to feel it's not a "birth defect." It's a feature!

(You would have to wiki Oreo and Hydrox to get the humor in the names- their father was Cookie- also white & black, the mother was a black cat named Woody.)
I know Oreo cookies, the other thing I'll be googling, but I guess it's still something black and white.

Skinnymon said:
And last fall, I was adopted by Weezer. (To the left)

cd/jpgs/Skinnymon/imag-350 (138 Kb)
Where I live is mostly farm area, not city, where "dumping" often happens when people get evicted or just have to move and cannot take the cat with them. It seems a shame, but the local Animal Control does not have a good reputation with cats left in their care, and some people just hope maybe some idiot cat lover ahem...kind person(s) will take the cat in. Anyway, that's the story.
The story is you're a hero.
going nowhere fast...
written by Skinnymon on Jun 16, 2017 00:47
Alex said:
At first it was Cydonia, which I felt it couldn't be interesting anyway
I meant that you had done a good job with it !


The kithas father wandered away, a battle scarred veteran of too much fighting, on his "road trips", But I had raised him from the day he was born (in my closet, no less), so I remember him fondly like that.. I still have their Grandmother, Google.

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written by Alex on Jun 16, 2017 23:26
Skinnymon said:
Alex said:
At first it was Cydonia, which I felt it couldn't be interesting anyway
I meant that you had done a good job with it !
Well I could still strive to get it slightly better. Especially, I'd have to practice with Blender's modeling, which isn't trivial. Maybe... anyway, for this week I've "catched a job", which sounds like some sort of illness to me, buuuut... I guess it'll pay for the kitten's stuff. And possibly a new roof for my car, the current one has a tear.
written by Chad on Jun 18, 2017 06:23
Hi Alex,

Just wanted to say that you are awesome. Being around this place and people for....years...lost count now... has been great and always a pleasure.

Your games, experiments, art, everything, has always been interesting and a wonderful look into who you are as a person.

Keep being you and I will always enjoy what comes about. It's been a fun ride even though things are quiet around here these days, as life come at each of us in different ways it's always nice to check back here and just share.

Cute cat, my cat is a turd and he knows what he did. >_>
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written by Alex on Jun 19, 2017 19:03
I keep being me, the problem's the "me" has been switching through a little too many things and doubts in the last decade. Wish I were the bold young me, although, in theory, that me might still be in here somewhere. It's quiet, but it's still up and I'm still hoping it will be revived (frankly, by either Lino4 or the Cydonia project, with fully sincere apologies for NV, which inspiration is nowhere to be found: I lost the psychological framework that supported the original concept). So, thank you very much for having appreciated what came, and for willing to appreciate whatever will be here in the future. Despite all these troubled times, I believe there will be better days ahead.
written by Cryoburner on Jun 22, 2017 12:32
Alex said:
One is missing a leg? That sucks, poor kitty.
An incident or a birth defect?
It was due to an injury. Back in January, she managed to break one of her front legs, which from what I can gather, was likely due to falling and catching the leg between the handrail of a staircase and a wall. Or at least, that's what it sounded like. She was limping around and her leg bent back about 90 degrees a couple inches or so above the wrist, so she was taken to see the veterinarian within about 40 minutes or so of the injury. Surgery was performed to get the leg back in position, and the bones had to be wired back together. She then had to wear a cast for a couple months, which had to be replaced a number of times. About a week before the cast was intended to come off for good, they performed some more X-rays and found there to be complications, so they ended up having to amputate, and took her leg off up to the shoulder. Then she had to be bandaged up for a couple more weeks.

At this point, she gets around reasonably well, although she does limp a fair amount, since she has to kind of hop on her remaining front leg. She hasn't been able to climb trees particularly well, but she has otherwise remained fairly mobile, and runs around and plays quite a bit.
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written by Alex on Jun 23, 2017 04:35
Well, yes, I know from others' accounts that a cat without a leg is by no means disabled, but that's pretty sad still. We have a similarly impaired cat around here, the name's "Junior" and he didn't lose a leg but lost control of his front left wrist, and keeps that paw constantly pointing backwards, although the back of his "hand" still supports weight in his (limpy) walking. Despite that, he's still a pretty vicious fighter, as Ares knows well: they're both non-sterilized males, so they engaged each other at random times, and yep, "Junior" was no easy target at all.
written by The_wanderer on Jul 06, 2017 10:10
Nothing will change unless you stop sabotaging yourself, Alex.
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